Meditation Day Two

Meditation: Day Two 

 
  Well today went surprisingly well did I constantly fight the word garbage that clogs my head of course I did!  At one point I tried so hard to control my thoughts that my brain rebelled to the point of being Turret Syndrome like, with random, vulgar, nonsense thoughts.  I thought I lost control of my brain to a four year old....(tee-hee) poking me every time I tried to settle it.  But at last there was quiet!  I felt that floating sensation that surrounds you just before sleep comes.  It was nice and made me want more.  More peace, more calm, more nothing! Iit didn't last long before the thought vomit returned but I can clearly see that with a lot of practice it could be a beautiful thing!  I am thankful for a glimpse at self imposed peace.  Why is it so easy to put ourselves in a state of chaos but such a task to find peace??

Meditation....Hmmmm

Meditation ... hmmmm

  I am completely on board with the concept of gratitude and positive thinking.  I have learned that dealing with any situation from a place of love is another way to do life better.    But I also believe that we need to know ourselves, we can't be renters in our own bodies.  We need to be in touch and connected living honestly not with dilutions. I believe meditation is one of getting there.  

  But this is where I struggle because it involves quieting my mind...oh boy, no easy feat!  I have said many times it's like an episode of hoarders in there.  I am determined to get to a quiet and clear place. 

  Today I tried to meditate.  I know success doesn't come right away soooo baby steps are ok.  First I try to find a quiet time in my home.  Then 5 a.m. it is!   I decided to try laying down and letting the weight of my body go, let the mat take my weight.  Next I focus on nice images, ocean, palm tree, a huge closet with thousands of flip flops and great bags!  Ok, back to the palm tree because the bags lead to to many other distracting thoughts. Just the palm tree now with a hint of a breeze.  Add a sunset behind and some white sand.  A silhouette of a bird in flight in the distance, and then it happens....."we need eggs."  The palm tree is gone so is the sunset and it took the bird and I'm trying remember where I put the dry cleaning slip and I am suddenly worried that I have an item ending on ebay, ugh!  It was a quick decent into a shopping list, a growling stomach and visions of k-cups, news and email.  But the good news is, I felt good. It was a start and I will not give up.  Tomorrow I will try again, maybe even later today.  I will find a quiet place in my head! I am important and my mental and physical state are very important.  I can't be there for anybody if I can't be there for myself! I am thankful for any peace I find no matter how brief, no matter how small.


elle      

Are You Paying Attenion?

  

  Focus...sooo important. Sooo powerful. Giving a great amount of attention to something is like giving someone a key to your house.  Total access into your life.  Meaning that for good or bad anything you make very important and give large amounts of attention to will dominate direction and events in your life.    If you over focus on your children, let's say...and you should, but if you hyper focus on them and their needs and activities and moods and drama what happens?  You lose yourself.  It's the same thing with your husband or a diet or exercise, QVC or an addiction.  Be careful about your attention and time.  Diversify, and make sure you give time for gratitude.  Gratitude is the great multiplier of the things you love not obsession.

   Take time to meditate.  Spend time focusing on the little lift...the happy attack you feel after a quiet session spent in gratitude.  Let that joy create feelings of peace and happiness, wallow in it.  If you are having a problem with someone or something don't focus on the disturbance.  Instead focus on everything and anything that is good about the person or situtation.  Imagine a solution or several possible good outcomes and give that your eye.

  Someone once told me that Mother Theresa had been asked to attend a war protest rally that was expecting to attract thousands and she declined to the the surprise of the organizers.  She told them that even in protest the focus was still war and she did not want to particiapate in anything that would possibly empower the very thing they were rallying against.  She told them if they ever decided to hold a peace rally attracting thousands in the name of love that she would be there.....
  I am thankful to know that there are people that evolved and that enlightened.  Another motivation to to life better. 

Elle